On loneliness

I get lonely a lot.

I mean, it's natural. I live alone.

I sort of got alienated from most of my friends here due to my own mistakes and missteps (although I cut off a lot of toxic people too). Those are mine to live with. But I have a few left here, and they've stuck by me.

It's probably for the better. A lot of them were just dead weight to me.

I know I need to rebuild my friend circle.

Being comfortable with yourself

I think something I've learnt how to do throughout all this is how to be comfortable with just me. I haven't lived alone ever in my life, until now. It's definitely an interesting experience.

I feel like it's a little isolating, but it's fine. It's teaching me valuable lessons about myself, and helping me grow more comfortable in my own skin. I really needed this, even if I didn't want it.

Will I ever live with someone again?

🤷‍♀️

I don't know what the future holds. I know right now, I'm not looking for new roommates, especially because the last one was an utter disaster, for me and for the people I was close to (and this is partially how I lost them).

I do know this: living alone means I don't have to live up to anyone's expectations or anything.

— Elizabeth Ashford (Elizafox) Fedi (elsewhere): @Elizafox@social.treehouse.systems Tip jar: PayPal || CashApp || LiberaPay